I just watched a movie with this same title. And there 3 major things that I realized that I’ve been doing in error.The first giant to face is fear. There are many names of fear, nervous, trepidation, anxiety, panic, dread, worry, discourage, impatience, concern, control, afraid, instability, unbelief/disbelief.When times turn hard or you are preparing for transition, our first instinct is to run, panic, quit, or resign. For the last several weeks, I’ve been frustrated with my position at my job. I’ve wanted to quit. I’ve sent off resumes and explained to my boss and my direct co-workers of my desire to leave out of frustration, and misunderstanding.I was shown earlier this evening that in the almost eight years there, that I’ve never once prayed for the President of the CU. I have never once spoke in favor of his leadership. I have never spoken directly to him, despite him giving me permission to seek him out directly if I have need of anything. The word says that we are to pray for our leaders as YHVH appointed them.
The second thing I was shown this evening is that our actions speak to those things that we believe. I’ve prayed (half heartedly) for a husband, marriage and children, for a new job, the ability to pay my tuition without obtaining student loans, the time to complete school as a full time student, a new home, and not have any debt.
I have not full prepared for these prayers to be answered. I have asked, but not allowed for the door to be opened. I’ve not been whole hearted because I have been afraid. I have doubted and been in disbelief. I have doubted YHVH in having a marriage, a husband, and children despite being told by Him who my husband is. Despite Him telling me that I would NOT be that man’s first wife. I have doubted and been afraid. I have not trusted in Him to fulfill His word to me and prepare, despite how it looks right now.
Finally, I have not TRUSTED, because when you doubt or have do not believe, then you do not TRUST. I have not trusted in YHVH to provide for the things that I have asked for. I have not trusted that he will promote me at my job. I observe the Sabbath (which many of you may know). But for those who don’t I try very diligently to not work on Saturdays. I have been doing this since around 2000 or 2001, and every job since then I’ve tried to maintain that standard. I would like to be promoted into a job that would require me to Saturdays in the spring/summer and early fall. I know that by accepting this I would be dishonoring the Sabbath. I want to be promoted as I’ve been in my position for almost 13 years (not just at my current CU). I would like to be given the opportunity to work in a different capacity.
I realized last night, that my promotion doesn’t depend on the hiring process, my skill set, or my ability or inability to work on Saturdays. I need to be patient and wait for YHVH to promote me, if this is HIS will. I also realized last night, that He opened the door for me to return to this employer in 2005. But He hasn’t closed it and I need to stop trying to jump ahead of what He wants for me.
The counter action to fear (in all of it’s names) is love. There is no fear in love, 1 John 4:18. So in times likes these you have to Love. You show that you love by praying. You show that you love by having patience and understanding. You show that you love by having peace. You show that you love by believe and trusting. When you love the door can be furthered opened for blessing and provision and the door of to fear can be closed.
Deut 31:6 – “Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid and do not be broken before them,for YHVH, your God it is He Who goes before you, He will not release you nor will He forsake you”.